Tattoo

So I got the tattoo.  During the process, it felt like a drill on my back but it didn't hurt like hell, it just hurt.  Afterwards it didn't really hurt, was just sore.  I felt like I made the right decision to get the tattoo and it turned out well.  It means a lot to me.  It represents the freedom I have in my heart with Christ.  Not many people are going to see the tattoo since it's on my back, and I have yet to figure out how to tell my parents.  But yeah.

Recently I have been sad on some occasions but not like depressed sad just a bit lonely and sad.  It's hard to describe.  I think because I really want to be with someone but today I told God that if I were to be single for the rest of my life I would be ready for that.  Yeah, it's a big statement for me to say but I think I am finally ready to tell God that I am OK with being single the rest of my life.

Adrian tried to contact me to see if we could get back together but I told him that the chapter of our lives together is over but I can still be his friend.  He seemed ok with that.  Selig stopped contacting me and I guess it helped me to realize that I cannot cling onto him.  After all, he told Andrew that he would never date me anyway.

I am too busy for my own good.  I recently signed on to do more things and I think I am going to drive myself crazy.  This is what happens when you don't pray about things before you sign up.  Or when you always think you need to help when you don't.  Yeah, I think I'm going to go crazy.  Lord, save me.