Sad again ( only God would understand this post)

I am sad not sure exactly why but it could be a combination of things I think I am sad because of what my mom said about my bipolar disorder also cuz I don't have anyone right now sad because selig doesn't love me nor does any other guy that I ever loved except for Adrian I wanted to be happy single but it seems like not working out maybe I was kidding my self or I was trying just to be strong but I'm tired of helping people now because I'm the one who needs help. I'm screwed with my homework I haven't done much at all. I feel weak and tired sad I gave so much and now I'm empty