I just don't have the words to say. It's just overwhelming to know that your friend could have died two days ago, and right now he's not answering your phone call, he's not online, and you can't go to his place to check on him.

I finished my 20-page essay today but it's like a part of me is not at peace because this friend could be trying once again to end his life but I cannot be there for him anymore.

Sorry to talk about all this depressing stuff here.