I feel inadequate

inadequate/ɪnˈadɪkwət/

▶adjective

• 1 lacking the quality or quantity required; insufficient.

• 2 unable to deal with a situation or with life.

Yes. I feel inadequate.  I'm behind on my readings (really behind actually, as in 4 books behind).  I'm behind in my planning for children's ministry.  I'm not on top of things.   Often distracted or wanting to sleep instead of doing things, feeling like I could be doing much better in everything...

I guess that's why I need God. Because God is the one who is least inadequate out of all beings in this world.  He is the one who can help me fill in the holes.  I don't have to be adequate to be his child or his servant, He accepts me as I am.  And I can rejoice in that.

It's been a long time since I've updated this blog.  I feel like I learned a lot during my missions trip yet still did not have enough time to process it all because I got sidetracked with this situation with Tommy Gagnon falling in love with me.  It was a big distraction.

Now I have to re-ask God what did I learn about myself during the missions trip.