A New Year's Blessing for You

Purpose - As you complete your daily tasks, may you understand how they contribute to the larger purpose of your life. May you experience deep satisfaction as you discover and carry out your unique role. (Psalms 25:12, 139:16; Jeremiah 29:11)

Fulfilling Work - May you take pleasure in all your work. May every task you undertake succeed, and may you enjoy the good things your labor supplies. (Ecclesiastes 1:24; Psalms 41:3)

Physical Health - May you and those you love remain strong in body and free from disease. May those who suffer from injury or illness recover quickly and completely. (3 John 1:2; Deuteronomy 7:15; Psalms 41:3)

Peace of Mind - May you mind and heart always be at rest. May gratitude and peace replace every anxious, fearful thought. (2 Thessalonians 3:16; Philippians 4:6)

Good Relationships - May you be surrounded by loving, faithful, and supportive friends. Where relationships have been broken, may you find reconciliation and forgiveness. (Proverbs 17:17, Ecclesiastes 4:9-12; Matthew 5:23-24)

Sufficient Resources - May you have exactly what you need for each day. May you become rich in every way so that you can share generously with others. (Proverbs 20:8-9; Luke 11:3; 2 Corinthians 9:11

"The LORD bless you and keep you; the LORD make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the LORD turn his face toward you and give you peace." Numbers 6:24-26

I'm hopeful

I'm hopeful that i will eventually find a mission-minded, godly, loving, funny, smart, French-speaking husband who will care about me and treat me right. I'm hopeful that someday it will be all worth the wait and i will give him all of me afresh and pure by the blood of Jesus Christ. I believe he will be the perfect match and that we will be perfect for each other and be patient with each others' flaws.

This is my prayer...



I want to be godly and loving to my future husband, ALL THE DAYS OF MY LIFE... even the days before I know who he is. I will honour God with my body and soul and prepare myself to be the perfect bride.

And Thuy will be my bridesmaid :D along with all the cell group girls. My sister will be the maid of honour. And Aaron and Caleb will be groomsmen :D

We are the light of the world (love these lyrics !!!)

Somehow this song comforts me

I hope that one day I will find Mr. Right. And not only will he be the right one for me but he will love me to death, treat me right, and have the common hobbies goals and dreams that I have. I hope that I can find this person soon.

Everyone it seems is dating (even though that is an illusion)... TV + S, YM + AM, my sister and Nick...

And I'm still alone, single, although I have God but it still hurts that big hole where Adrian left in my heart. That hole that I tried to fill with Andrew, Caleb, Ronson, Mike, Sam, and whoever else came along my way. Right now I'm filling the hole with yet another person: JM. And I'm embarassed to say it but its probably just another phase just like Andrew was a phase, just like Caleb was a phase.

I'm never gonna heal fully from the hurt and scars that Adrian left. Even though I am much more healed than he is but im still not much better off.

I feel like I need more girls day outs and girls nights. I feel like I need God so much more and I feel I need to calm down and apologize to Aaron for telling him to shut up yesterday when I got mad at him from not telling me who he was dating and all the deeper hurts that I felt about the situation...

I'm sorry Aaron. I know you will read this. Thanks for being patient with me cuz I'm still hurting. I hope you understand.

Possibly the most relaxing day of the year

Today, Boxing Day, has been one of the most relaxing days of the year, if not THE most relaxing. No schoolwork or ministry tasks to do. Just slept in, watched a movie with family (TINTIN! AWESOME MOVIE), then went to eat at a nice restaurant with family... then went home, did some reading, cleaned my room, and went out for wings with Sara B. Then came home and caught up on little tasks here and there that had no stress whatsoever. Now listening to Starfield Christian music and updating my blog which I havent done in the longest time!

Notice how instead of complaining or moping or saying something is wrong, today I am thankful and glad that the day went well :)

Thanks God

An Encouragement from my spiritual director Dena

I meet up with Dena every other week and she helps me hear from God. Here is an email she sent me yesterday after I told her about my period problem still not being healed...this is such an encouragement...

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Good Morning, Martine!

When I read this meditation from Larry Crabb this morning, I thought of our discussion last night. I think it is normal and natural and mentally healthy to want to be well -- and to ask Jesus to make you well. In Joni Eareckson's (and the Apostle Paul's) case, their physical thorn in the flesh became the avenue by which they could attain an even greater (and at the time, buried, desire) than physical health: to know HIM intimately and transformatively. I believe that was Bartimaeus' discovery too. Receiving his sight was great blessing but he received "second sight" perhaps ...who Jesus was, and that following Him, being in His company, was truly the greatest thing for which his soul longed.

I don't want you to be "superspiritual", Martine, or dishonest before the Lord or me or anyone, with your desires. As I said before, it is natural (and healthy) not to want to suffer. There is a great personal cost to bear your physical affliction. But perhaps a possible prayer is ... "Lord, please heal me. But if you don't want to heal me - for whatever reasons - show me how to live with this affliction with overcoming grace, grace that is authentic and that comes to know you deeply. A knowing that satisfies my soul at its deepest level."

Hugs (and a blessed Christmas),Dena

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LARRY CRABB: "We want the blessings of a better life more than we desire to draw near to Jesus. We approach Him the way a child approaches a weary Santa Claus in the mall, who for the hundredth time asks, 'What do you want for Christmas?' I wager no child has ever pressed close to Santa's chest, looked up into his eyes, and said, 'You! I want only You.'"

The Pressure's Off, Page 77

Question for Reflection:What things do you ask for instead of nearness to God?