SIGH!

My guinea pig just ate part of a wire! It was the headset for my phone's wire. I was holding Fuzzy on my lap and I was looking at the computer, then he started chewing the wire without me noticing because the wire was in my pocket. UGH! Fifteen dollars gone and Fuzzy just ingested metal and plastic. I should have been more careful.

These days I've been horrible at saving money. Yesterday I just bought a bubble tea at STC for 5.59, so expensive. And I spent like 35 dollars on snacks for kids for the end-of-term party at my workplace.

Yes, I like to complain. But originally I wanted to come on this blog to talk about something else.

Now I forgot what I was gonna talk about. How uninspiring!

With Jesus I can Overcome

Thank You God for loving me

My sister showed me a video about Demi Lovato talking about how Love can be Louder than the Pressure to be Perfect. She was born plump but Disney made her go on a diet to stay thin, but now she's off the diet and is willing to accept herself as she is. It helps me because my mom keeps saying I'm getting fat, and the fat that's around my tummy is so hard to get rid of. I just want to be myself.

The video led me to other videos and one of them was this, a song recommended by Demi Lovato to help her get through hard times.



And here's another song she recommended, about beauty coming from the fact that God made us, instead of what others think:

Waiting for Andrew

I don't know if you guys are sick of me blogging about Andrew by now, but I just wanted to say that today I feel happy for some reason, and I feel like I'm willing to wait for Andrew :) even if it takes a while for him to fall in love with me... :)

He told me that he doesn't like anyone at the moment, which is semi-good news for me because that means at least he's not interested in some other girl. :) hehe

I felt better after a nap

Today in the afternoon I took a good long nap. I think I really needed it.

I tend to clench my teeth when I am stressed. I find myself clenching my teeth a lot more these days. Maybe I should've gotten the mouth guard like my dentist said so my teeth don't crack and deteriorate.

I don't think I was ever made for a full-time job. Even working part-time is enough stress for me. I feel like I'm pretty fragile and weak. Even just a bit of stress triggers my period problem. I'm pretty grumpy and annoyed these days because of it. Not very Christ-like at all.

feeling a bit better

after people prayed for me, i feel so much better.

I Surrender All

As I am writing this, I am not doing well. My period problem is back (this is the second time I had a period this month, and there is A LOT of blood. I'm crying and wishing Aaron was here. (He left for Seattle this morning, and I am missing him like crazy).

I had to miss softball practice today because I had my period problem. And right now I just feel like no one will understand how I feel. I don't even know exactly why I am crying.

It's been exactly one year yesterday that I came to Grace Chinese Gospel Church. It has been exactly one year Saturday that Adrian and I broke up. I had such a busy and fun weekend with softball, Arabic Church, and what not, that I didn't even have a chance to be sad this whole weekend. The sadness came yesterday, when we had our goodbye party for Aaron. (he's coming back, but only after 6 weeks in Seattle)

Aaron was there for me over the past year or so and helped me a lot in my transition to Grace Gospel Church and with every single problem I had in general. He was always there for me. And now I won't be able to see him until September. I know it seems like a short time, but it seems like a long time to me.

On top of all this, Andrew hasn't been very responsive to me and I'm not gonna try to initiate any conversation to him anymore until he initiates it with me. Maybe he is just busy with work. I don't know.

But I just wish I could cry on someone's shoulder right now!!! But I am too afraid to call and bother people with my problems. And I just feel like no one would understand. What would I say anyway? I would just cry.