i am wide awake and i think that staring at this computer isnt going to help me sleep but i just cant get my mind off of things that happened in the past, things that were said, memories that were shared and life that has happened. i wish i could say i am fully over Adrian but i am not, and these feelings for another guy right now are also interfering and i wonder if any guy will ever accept me for who i am and love me for who i am and accept what i did in the past

i remember that i should love myself first, because if i cannot love myself i cannot expect others to love me. but right now im having trouble loving myself and things are not really going anywhere, just my mind going round and round in circles.