Everything affects everything...

Today was a good day, although most of the time, I was either in the doctor's office, at the pharmacy, at the Registrar's, or going back and forth traveling between those places and home.

I like sunny days. When there is sun, I'm usually happy. My doctor had said I needed more vitamin D, so today I ate lunch outside and chased butterflies :D I tried to catch them too, on my camera. I have some beautiful photos I would love to show you sometime, or make into greeting cards using picnik.com and paper from Dollarama. hehe.

I finally got my skin medicine (my skin was getting really really bad! you don't want to see open flesh do you?), got a Hepatitis B booster shot (because my immunity was low), and discovered that I was iron deficient anemic again. I guess avoiding eating meat was not a good idea after all. Everything affects everything. My period problem made me lose iron, and my bipolar medicine made me dehydrated which made me constipated (yes, embarrassing) which made me want to eat less meat, which added to the iron deficiency.

So now, I'm gonna just drink fibre water, eat more meat and vegetables, don't care anymore if I gain weight cuz I just want to be healthy. I have to take iron pills too, with orange juice so that it can absorb better. Yeah. Everything affects everything, because the past few weeks I didn't drink orange juice or eat many fruits either. Too stressed/depressed.

Now that I'm happier, I really should get back in shape, nutrition wise and exercise-wise. What non-strenuous exercise should I do? I wish I could dance more.

Everything affects everything also in terms of life and our decisions. One bad decision and it could affect people you love or yourself. One hurtful word and someone could be cut to the heart. One encouraging word and that person could become your best friend. One hello and a barrier can be broken.

Interesting, isn't it? That everything can affect anything. I mean, those butterflies sure made me happy today, kept me company. If there weren't flowers there, the butterflies wouldn't be there either. If I didn't pray about OSAP today, maybe there could have been some problem at the Registrar and they would have sent me home AGAIN to fill more forms!

Sometimes the fact that everything affects everything/anything can scare us. Like right now, I'm just afraid I will screw up stuff with my family. I already am hyper-sensitive to where my dad moves, because I am afraid he will touch me on my bum accidentally for the 5th time this week. I know. Scary.

In any case, I would like to conclude with this wonderful thought: that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him. I know God has a great plan for all of us so even if things fail in our lives we can still rely on Him to fix it and make it better. He is the All-Powerful God.

May God bless you in everything.

New start in an old blog ??

Hi friends, specifically Sam and Thuy! (yes, the people other than myself who can read this blog!!!! One day you will meet each other, don't worry)

After many years of over-exposure, public attention, or complete open-transparency-everyone-who-has-internet-can-read-my-mind.... I have decided to make my blog private. I used to use my blog as something to encourage others and share the gospel, but I guess from now on I will encourage and share in a more personal way, face-to-face, or through phone or email at least... because for me, this blog has caused me a bit of trauma after I broke up with Adrian...

Yup, it was read by some people who assumed things of me and I basically shot myself in the foot by sharing my heart to the world. From now on, I will be wiser.

I know that the two of you read my blog, can be trusted with my LIFE, and I talk to you often enough so that you will not misunderstand me. Plus, I still wish to share my whole life with a few people. Sam, you don't know a whole ton about my past so I decided that this is one way you can scroll back into the archives of my life museum and see what happened or went through my crazy brain.

My previous blog was www.puritydove.com but DON'T GO THERE, it has been bought out by someone else...Basically my ex gave me that site and then he closed it down without giving me back my journal entries!!!!

Before that, www.xanga.com/puritydove ... I think it still works if you go there, I wrote some very inspiring things and very deep things about me there. And before that, it was Msn Spaces with my biblegurl@hotmail.com email... not sure how to get to that now!

Anyway, hope reading my blogs actually draws us closer together, and doesn't waste your time! Please do your homework/work first! :P

Take care and God bless you **hugs**

What Love Really Is... beautiful...

If I speak in the tongues of mortals and of angels, but do not have love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. ²And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. ³If I give away all my possessions, and if I hand over my body to be burned, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant ⁵or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; ⁶it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. ⁷It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

8 Love never ends. But as for prophecies, they will come to an end; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will come to an end. ⁹For we know only in part, and we prophesy only in part; ¹⁰but when the complete comes, the partial will come to an end. ¹¹When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; when I became an adult, I put an end to childish ways. ¹²For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then we will see face to face. Now I know only in part; then I will know fully, even as I have been fully known. ¹³And now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; and the greatest of these is love.

(1 Corinthians 13, the Bible)

I actually had the idea of discontinuing this blog but there are a lot of memories that I don't want to lose, and I do have many things I like to share. I think it's just that right now at this point in time, I have so many feelings that are not suitable for sharing. I have lots of anger, depression, bitterness, hopelessness, and crap that will not inspire or help you understand life better in any way. It's just plain old crappy feelings that I have to deal with myself or with close friends, not online.

And this blog, like I always say was meant to inspire. Until I am ready to do that again, I think I will be taking a break from this blog. I still share stuff on facebook though. Okay, so long friends. Thanks for your readership. God bless you all, each and every one of you. Still care about every single one of you.

Famous People with Manic Depression aka Bipolar Disorder

Famous People with Manic Depression

Mania and depression are cyclical and affect all of us, but the intensity varies. We all experience highs and lows from time to time, but in some these highs and lows are extremely intense and disrupt normal life.

Manic depression is one such condition that affects normal living, thinking, and activities to a large extent. There are a number of famous people in the world who have experienced manic depression, and while some have managed to overcome this condition, a few have succumbed to it and committed suicide.

Among famous artists, Vincent Van Gogh is said to be one of the famous people with manic depression, and some of his work reflect these moods, especially the colors and strokes used on the canvas. During the manic phase, he worked like a genius and during one of his depressive phases, he pulled the trigger and committed suicide.

Other famous artists who are said to have suffered manic depression are Michelangelo and Pablo Picasso.

In the class of performing artists, Marilyn Monroe was a classic case of famous people with manic depression or bipolar disorder; an actor par excellence, but could not overcome manic depression and ultimately died by consuming sleeping tablets when she was only 36 years old.

Beside Marilyn Monroe, there are many other famous performing artists and actors who are said to have suffered from manic depression, and they are, Vivien Leigh Butler, Jeremy Brett, Madonna, Cary Grant, Margot Kidder, Jean-Claude Van Damme, Elizabeth Taylor, and Jim Carrey.

There were several leaders who were said to have suffered from manic depression, such as Abraham Lincoln, Napoleon Buonaparte, Mao Tse-Tung, Alexander the Great, Sir Winston Churchill, and Theodore Roosevelt.

Poets and writers, too, are among famous people with manic depression. A few famous ones are said to be Mark Twain, Oscar Wilde, Ernest Hemingway, Henry James, Percy Bysshe Shelley Charles Dickens, and Maxim Gorky

In addition to the above, there are many other very famous people who were said to have suffered from manic depression or bipolar disorder. This includes the likes of Christopher Columbus, Sir Isaac Newton, Beethoven, and Albert Einstein.

Manic depression or bipolar disorder is a condition which has affected the rich and famous, writers and actors, poets and composers alike. Irrespective of gender, age, race, and location, manic depression is a condition that needs to be dealt with care, compassion, and courage.

Treatment for manic depression typically involves counseling, psychotherapy, and / or pharmacological drugs. Alternative or natural remedies are available, too.

Click here for more pages and articles on Bipolar Disorder or Manic Depression.

Article taken from http://www.all-on-depression-help.com/famous-people-with-manic-depression.html

Quotes I want to remember... (thanks to JL for these!!!)

There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn't thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences; who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and go on.
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Hope for the best. Prepare for the worst.