Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Monday, February 14, 2011
Happy Valentine's Day to all my friends. I love you and God does too!!!!
Let's walk this life together! :)
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Why am I sad?
Yesterday was Sam's birthday. I didn't realize it until today, when I went on his facebook page. Of course I wrote "Happy Belated Birthday" but I felt really bad for forgetting his birthday. Truth is, I knew his birthday was Feb. 1st, but for some reason yesterday it just didn't click in that it was Feb. 1st, Sam's birthday.
I was probably too preoccupied with all the stuff I had to do and also this newfound guy named Andrew. So I right now I feel bad that I didn't remember Sam's birthday, esp. since this was a guy I supposedly had a deep connection with in past months.
Am I just a superficial person? Jumping from guy to guy? After one guy has "expired" I just jump onto a new one? Am I using guys just so that I have something to dream about, something to hold on to? Am I wasting my time??
Part of me really wished Sam and I could have worked out. Right now, this Andrew guy isn't even that interested in me as far as I know. And sometimes I still think of Adrian, even yesterday when I bought something from Taco Bell (he loves tacos). I guess I still have a lot to figure out.
Everyone longs for intimacy. But sometimes it's better to seek an appropriate type of intimacy amongst friends, esp. when you are not ready for a relationship. I know I am not ready. I'm still not over Adrian, that's the truth. I might be over Sam though, and this Andrew thing is definitely wasting a lot of my time.
I was probably too preoccupied with all the stuff I had to do and also this newfound guy named Andrew. So I right now I feel bad that I didn't remember Sam's birthday, esp. since this was a guy I supposedly had a deep connection with in past months.
Am I just a superficial person? Jumping from guy to guy? After one guy has "expired" I just jump onto a new one? Am I using guys just so that I have something to dream about, something to hold on to? Am I wasting my time??
Part of me really wished Sam and I could have worked out. Right now, this Andrew guy isn't even that interested in me as far as I know. And sometimes I still think of Adrian, even yesterday when I bought something from Taco Bell (he loves tacos). I guess I still have a lot to figure out.
Everyone longs for intimacy. But sometimes it's better to seek an appropriate type of intimacy amongst friends, esp. when you are not ready for a relationship. I know I am not ready. I'm still not over Adrian, that's the truth. I might be over Sam though, and this Andrew thing is definitely wasting a lot of my time.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Un autre gars ...
Ces jours-là je trouve que je vais sur msn plus qu'avant pour chercher ou pour attendre un gars qui s'appelle Andrew Chao. C'est plutôt pathétique mais je ne peux pas m'empêcher de le faire.
Actuellement il est maintenant sur msn mais je suis trop gênée ou embarrassée, je ne veux pas initier la conversation. Ce gars est le gars "parfait" pour moi selon mes critères, mais encore une fois je ne pense pas qu'il m'aime.
En fait, c'est une situation plutôt stupide parce que j'ai commencé à aimer ce gars il y a quelques mois mais je sautais de lui à d'autres garçons (back and forth) et maintenant il pense que je ne l'aime pas. (parce que je lui ai dit)
Ugh c'est une situation un peu bizarre...
Actuellement il est maintenant sur msn mais je suis trop gênée ou embarrassée, je ne veux pas initier la conversation. Ce gars est le gars "parfait" pour moi selon mes critères, mais encore une fois je ne pense pas qu'il m'aime.
En fait, c'est une situation plutôt stupide parce que j'ai commencé à aimer ce gars il y a quelques mois mais je sautais de lui à d'autres garçons (back and forth) et maintenant il pense que je ne l'aime pas. (parce que je lui ai dit)
Ugh c'est une situation un peu bizarre...
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