Angel whispers to a human heart

Over the past few weeks, I've been really excited because this guy I really like (or supposedly, I like him) is coming to town. His name is Andrew Chao. He's from Montreal, and in fact, he just arrived in Toronto just two hours or so ago. I'm going to be meeting up with him tomorrow for dinner with cell group people.

Andrew has all the qualities that I am looking for. But like Thuy said, I'm just attracted to his qualities right now, and I'm setting myself up for unrequited love because I barely know this guy in real life, I have mostly just talked to him through email or msn, and I only saw him 2 times in real life in the past. This week would be my third time seeing him. And this guy shows no indication of interest towards me, other than as a friend.

But supposedly, I like him a lot right now.

The weird thing is, lately I've been having these dreams... I had a dream of me and Adrian getting back together, as if nothing happened and we still had a healthy relationship. That was quite an elaborate dream.

Then later on, I had a dream about Sam, about me and Sam getting back together and having lots of fun together. The following day, I had another dream and Sam was in it, although, we were not together this time.

Then, the day after that, I had a dream about Jonathan Wong. It wasn't a super romantic dream but we were doing things together and I don't remember exactly but I think in the dream I had an interest in him.

So you see, I dreamed about three guys I used to like, and Andrew wasn't in any of these dreams, not even having a small part to play in the dreams. Does that mean that I don't really like Andrew after all?

I've been asking God to show me whether Andrew is the one. And yet I don't think I'm ready to hear His answer. I even told God, "God, I am not ready to hear your answer"... because I'm afraid the answer is a no.

I already have a feeling that maybe Andrew is not the one after all. Maybe tomorrow I should just act normal and be his friend and not expect anything more. Maybe he and I are not a good match after all, even with all his great qualities. I don't even know how he acts in real life around other friends other than Peggy, cuz the last times I hung out with him it was with Peggy. What if he acts different around non-church people? I wouldn't know.

Plus, he hasn't shown any interest in me.

I have two theories. Either my dreams were a way for my brain to dump out old relationships and get ready for a new one, or maybe the dreams showed that I don't like Andrew after all, that I like the others more.