Thursday, January 13, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Thursday, January 6, 2011
NOT sad and NOT pathetic
Hello friends,
Thanks for bearing with me as I went thru my "sad and pathetic" phase. I am feeling much better now, ready to face the world.
School is starting on Tues. and I can barely believe it. I am already busy with lots of work from work work and volunteer. I hope I can be a good student and good worker at the same time. God grant me strength!!!
At the same time, I plan to have fun this semester. It's my last semester so I'm gonna have fun with everything: work, school, friends, whatever. I'm gonna try my best to have a happy attitude and an attitude that is ready to face any challenge.
I am reading a book called "boundaries in dating". It really is practical.
I don't know how to end this blog post... :P haha bye bye for now!
Thanks for bearing with me as I went thru my "sad and pathetic" phase. I am feeling much better now, ready to face the world.
School is starting on Tues. and I can barely believe it. I am already busy with lots of work from work work and volunteer. I hope I can be a good student and good worker at the same time. God grant me strength!!!
At the same time, I plan to have fun this semester. It's my last semester so I'm gonna have fun with everything: work, school, friends, whatever. I'm gonna try my best to have a happy attitude and an attitude that is ready to face any challenge.
I am reading a book called "boundaries in dating". It really is practical.
I don't know how to end this blog post... :P haha bye bye for now!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Sad and pathetic
Hello, I haven't written in this blog in a long time. I think since before exams. Sigh. I feel so sad and pathetic right now. I think I'm in love with yet another guy. This guy lives in Montreal and never contacts me unless I contact him first, another one of those passive guys. Cheez! UGH. I was thinking about him before I went to sleep and now I'm not able to sleep.
He has basically everything I'm looking for, as far as I know. He's a kind, polite person, he is patient, friendly, speaks Chinese and French, loves God a lot, is very disciplined and hardworking... He cares a lot about others and he likes music, plays guitar, sings, he's got everything that practically every Christian girl wants.
I am sad because I think when I first met him he was kind of attracted to me, but then I was all crazy about Adrian and clung on to this Montreal guy for support and because of that I think I scared him away, cuz I was a total control freak after I lost Adrian.
Today Nanette from church told me this awesome quote. It's " Guys love bitches, and girls love assholes." And she said that Bitch was an acronym for Babes In Total Control of Herself. And That is so true, guys like girls who are independent. They are not gonna go for a control freak, they are gonna go for the girls in control of themselves.
I don't think I have good control of myself, but I'm working on it. But Andrew from Montreal doesn't know that. He just sees me for what I have told him. He thinks I liked him but don't like him anymore, thinks that I am super open about everything, and that's probably it. I don't think he sees anything attractive in me. I don't know what to think about this, but the reason why I know I love him is because I prayed to God two days ago if I could be with Andrew. That's serious. That's a serious prayer.
People say I'm fast, and I know I am, I just got over Jonathan last month and now I'm back to Andrew. What a mess. What a fast person I am. It makes people question whether I really ever loved a guy and I can tell you, I do. I am just fast, that's all. But I do love truly, madly and deeply.
I am still sad and I feel pathetic that I am such a fast moving person.
Here is a cheesy song to cheer you up:
He has basically everything I'm looking for, as far as I know. He's a kind, polite person, he is patient, friendly, speaks Chinese and French, loves God a lot, is very disciplined and hardworking... He cares a lot about others and he likes music, plays guitar, sings, he's got everything that practically every Christian girl wants.
I am sad because I think when I first met him he was kind of attracted to me, but then I was all crazy about Adrian and clung on to this Montreal guy for support and because of that I think I scared him away, cuz I was a total control freak after I lost Adrian.
Today Nanette from church told me this awesome quote. It's " Guys love bitches, and girls love assholes." And she said that Bitch was an acronym for Babes In Total Control of Herself. And That is so true, guys like girls who are independent. They are not gonna go for a control freak, they are gonna go for the girls in control of themselves.
I don't think I have good control of myself, but I'm working on it. But Andrew from Montreal doesn't know that. He just sees me for what I have told him. He thinks I liked him but don't like him anymore, thinks that I am super open about everything, and that's probably it. I don't think he sees anything attractive in me. I don't know what to think about this, but the reason why I know I love him is because I prayed to God two days ago if I could be with Andrew. That's serious. That's a serious prayer.
People say I'm fast, and I know I am, I just got over Jonathan last month and now I'm back to Andrew. What a mess. What a fast person I am. It makes people question whether I really ever loved a guy and I can tell you, I do. I am just fast, that's all. But I do love truly, madly and deeply.
I am still sad and I feel pathetic that I am such a fast moving person.
Here is a cheesy song to cheer you up:
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