Don't want to fall asleep

I'm done my essay, I'm done some other things that need to be done. I'm not that tired right now, but seriously, I should be due to the amount of hours I slept last night. The hours on this blog clock are not right. It's actually 1:02am right now, Monday. Anyways...

Maybe I'm afraid to wake up and feel a very deep hurt. Cuz right now I'm doing okay, but I miss Sam a lot and I still am in the process of letting him go... It's gonna take some time... I kind of wish on one hand that he would call or email... but it's probably not a good idea anyway. I'm in like "aftershock" right now. All I know is, I did what God told me to do, no question about it... and so in the future, I will not regret it... I will just miss Sam a lot, that's all. Kind of wish we had more time to just be friends together. And just hang out without worries. But I guess life never turns out the way you expect... and it ends up being more challenging and helps you grow as a result.

I hope I can go to Cuba, Montreal, and/or random cool countries this year. Cuz yeah, Thuy and I made the promise, and so... yeah.

Good night.

“He stood still. All he could hear was the rain. So intent on making his way along this supposed path that now he’d lost her. Surely he had lost the path too, if there had ever been one. He called out again, a confident, no-nonsense call, no reason to get excited. He got no reply, but just then saw between two trees a true path, quite patent, an easy winding way.”

-from the fantasy novel "Little, Big"

As I was reading over my essay, I realize that this quote can actually speak to something or someone happening in my life right now. Quite true. Quite real.

Dedicated to myself!!!

I needed this... maybe it will encourage u too?

Psalm 25:14-15

The LORD confides in those who fear him; he makes his covenant known to them.

My eyes are ever on the LORD, for only he will release my feet from the snare.
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:( OMGosh, the confirmation came last night... The little voice I heard earlier on in the day was God trying to tell me something after all... My heart is wrenched. I'm gonna cry it all out during church today... O Lord, Have mercy on me.

But don't worry friends, I'm gonna be okay. It's all for the best.

At the Top of My Lungs!!!!!

At the top of my lungs I will sing Hallelujah!!
I'm not ashamed, I'll praise your name,
let the whole world know... I love you Lord

I'm not looking back. I'm NEVER looking back. I'm free, I'm forgiven, I'm forever loved, and I am not holding on to anyone except God my Saviour!!!! I joyfully embrace the road ahead of me, and I will lift up my voice to praise Him!!! I'm living for Him.

Whether you see this as God speaking to you, a friend speaking to you, or you speaking it to someone else, I find it a very beautiful and comforting song.

I will be here for you.

There's nothing to fear...

***BIG HUGS TO EMMY, JESS, ALICE, THUY, JENNY, SAM, ADRIAN, BHAVNA, ANIKA, CRYSTAL, SARA, JENNIFER, YING, KARL, PEGGY, LILLIAN, THE YUEN FAMILY, AND THE UASHAT KIDS!!!***